A little rant...

It's getting very very hard for me to keep waking up every day to go to my job...

You see, I've given so much to this job in the past 9yrs... only to have vac taken away (but i did get promoted so that's good and I have a boss that does work with me) and so much more.

1. I started working for the place I work at under a different company before. Pay wasn't that great but I needed money and they hired me. I really didn't have plans on staying at this place that long... 9yrs later i'm sitting here writing this... This company at least did things for my department and gave us lots of time off. Near the end I had almost a month of time total. We also got paid Over Time like crazy they didn't care as well as extra cash for report defects etc... But it came to a end in 2005.

2. The new company took over and took away many things... All of those days off of mine are gone and now I only have 10 days... No more parties, O/T, giving us things, cash for defects, etc...

3. The new management department treats us like dogs, since we're no longer a part of them (we were in-house when i first got there now we're a hired contract). They even blame us for missing 'toilet paper' claiming we are thieves. Even say we go into their frig and eat their stuff or mess with it. On one incident of the frig thing... 1 guy from their team told 1 of our guys that he was allowed to have left over pizza they had from a party earlier that day. So he had a slice... Next day the management team was in a uproar claiming that we stole pizza and went through their stuff and how we should pay for their 'pizza'. The guy that told our guy that he could didn't stand up at all and never said sorry or anything. Instead those f***ing cry babies got a new full pizza paid by the guy that ate the 1 slice.

4. They talk to us as if we're stupid and cut in many times on our conversions to put in their 2 cents which isn't worth shit. They tell us how to do our job but we even dare say 1 word they will get upset of course... During a fire in a large dumpster in a dock I was in command and in control. I had my guys blocking traffic, guys that ran and got me fire extinguishers, etc... and 1 from management had to come up to me and question why I had so many in the area? Lets see, 1 to block traffic, 2 were with me helping me put out this large fire which when the FD came out with their Chief, he requested back-up... so yes it was a large fire. And that guy never said sorry. There are hundreds of other incidents where they were wrong and never, never! have said sorry or anything because they are never wrong... never.

5. I would comment on some other things but due to what they involve of it may place some people in danger, etc... lets just say we run errands which we are not qualified.

6. I get 2 days off every week (rare times I do not, but I do get a extra day down the road). 1 time while on my normal days off a guy from management got upset because I wasn't there and wanted me to work all week without a day off. Of course I didn't do this but he wasn't happy that I had 'days off'. You see, I am 2nd head man, the 1st (my boss) was on vac and I'm supervisor on weekends so I do not have weekends off or else they will be short handed etc... So my days off are during the week day... this guy wasn't happy about that. He was rude and I can't remember word for word but it wasn't how someone in his position should of handled it.

7. I do a lot of things around the place. I do get some free meals, etc... but I do feel like i get taken advantage of and many (almost all) of my co-workers see this. I'm a nice hard working guy, so when they ask something of me I do it. Which could be a bad thing...

I'm always (or it seems and others see this too) asked first to cover for someone. I don't mind usually but after 9 years of it... yeah. I'm asked to stay over a lot, do errands a lot, work on computers (even outside of my department) a whole lot just because I know how to work on them, etc... I do a lot and after 9 years of all of this i'm getting tired of it...

8. Always shaving... I hate to shave. yes this might be a stupid thing and some say that I have too and its a way of life but come on man. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of not being able to be myself but being a puppet for this company. It even says it in our damn handbook both on and off work we gotta follow their guidelines! yes, off work I am not allowed to do anything that could be taken has neg feedback which makes the company look bad. So if I do a protest for anything, get drunk in public, get in a fight, the list goes on and on I can be fired, all while doing it off duty on my own time.

9. Pay raises hahahahahahaha that is all

10. "If you don't like it then quit" that's what your saying. I would love too, but you know what I can't. Its not like a fucking drug or something you can just quit... No, money is way worse then a drug... without it your life will be ruined... no place to live, no food (or very little), etc...

I got stuck in this job and I hate it more and more every year. I see others that been there way longer and how they aren't doing anything but working at this place. I don't want to become like them and stuck at this place. I want to do something with meaning, something that treats me better, a job that i'll enjoy for a long time.

I'm hurting for money really damn bad, close to losing a lot. So, i'm stuck working here being a puppet, treated like nothing by both the company and customers...

It takes a toll after 9 years of people beating you down every damn day... i'm not kidding its every day... 9 years of it.

I am a manic depressant and bi-polar and this is very damn hard for me to keep my head up and is getting harder.

Life isn't fair... that is true but we made it this way.

that is all for now... I can keep going into a very very long rant but I'll end it here.

please excuse any typos, errors, etc... because i'm not going to bother reading this... I'm most likely spend all night adding more to it if i do.

All I want is to live my life...

Just finished watching the latest The Walking Dead episode on AMC and now i'm trying to enter the zombie extra contest which like last time the severs are crashing lol

AMC really should get more servers or something to fix this problem if they are going to keep having this contest after every show. I keep getting:
"Could not connect to the database:
Too many connections"

Tonight's episode was pretty good, i think they are up to issue #77-78? I can't remember its been a little while.

Once again the gore was still pleasant. I'm sure AMC will have it up on their site to watch later in the week.

Haven't you heard?

I just love that episode.

There hasn't been to much going on in my little demented world...

But last nite at some point lighting hit on of my trees in the backyard... it broke the top part off and came close to hitting the house. We didn't notice it till this morning. I took some photos, i'll post them later. You can see the burn marks on it. I can't believe I didn't even hear it...

Tsix is lv80 yay! And i'm working on getting some l33t gear on him.

Oh!
I finally saw The Zombie Diaries (not to be confused with Diary of the Dead) It was pretty damn good. Its raw and very bloody. I saw some of the behind the scenes stuff... they had some actors have live maggots put on their faces, pretty wild isn' t it?

The DVD is pretty cheap and its worth very cent!



I also bought a new zombie book (think i like zombie themed stuff? lmao)

The book is called Dead Reckoning: Dawning of the Dead, its a unofficial squeal to the original Dawn of the Dead. I just got the book in the mail and i'm a couple of chapters into it, its very good.

Zombie Painting Done

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Well, there it is... all finished. It took me about 4 days. I'm already getting ideas for my next one. I plan on making prints of this one and others to come, maybe sell them at some point if anyone is interested. If you are, please leave a comment.

zombie painting update

well, i just finished doing a little more on my very first zombie painting... i'm pretty damn impressed with it, being my first one after all.

The first photo is from yesterday and the 2nd is from today like 30mins ago.

the photo below this is what paints i'm using.



tell me what you think

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art

This photo shows the very early stages of a painting I am going to do. It will be my very first painting. I normally draw zombies but I decided to see what I can do on a canvas. As you can tell, I started with drawing a rough idea very lighty on a canvas. Later i'll start to fill it all in.

I'll take photos of it as I go.

I'm not sure how my first painting will turn out, but hey why not give it a try.

Also, I'm working more and more on my zombie book. Thats been slowly coming together as well... I'll post a little maybe later

gnite!

.....

well, still no 360... :(

i lved to 76 and getting close to 77... yay

but i really want to play sf4 or left 4 dead... blah

well i'm at work atm, just wanting to give a little update.

oh yes, for Metallmans i'll post some photos of my kill bill poster and katana i have.

but sure to check his blog out I don't really know him but seems really cool.

alright, i'm almost out of here... then i'm going to go home, relax and play a little WoW.

till then

New tech could make consoles obsolete? IDK

Below is a news story i just read. It seems interesting but I doubt this will kill the console gaming. There have been others like this and they vanished... It sounds like a good idea, but just won't make it bigger then console gaming.

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New tech could make consoles obsoleteOnLive promises on-demand, streaming gamesBy Mike SmithADVERTISEMENTWhat if you could stream top-end games to your TV, just like a Youtube video that you can control? You'd never need to buy a console again.That's the future envisaged by Palo Alto startup OnLive, which plans to launch a groundbreaking gaming service this winter. OnLive will supply players with a small set-top box, not much bigger than a Nintendo DS, which will plug into your TV and your home broadband connection. From there, you can start playing games just like those on the Xbox 360, PS3 or PC -- but with no install time, no waiting for downloads, and no need for big, noisy, expensive consoles cluttering up your living room. OnLive's service can be continually upgraded, too, so you'll never be stuck with obsolete hardware again.Skeptical? So were we, until we actually sat down and played with an OnLive box last week. Even a blisteringly fast racer like Burnout Paradise was totally playable over the service, and top-spec shooter Crysis: Warhead -- which normally requires an expensive gaming PC -- ran excellently too. It's all rolled together with a slick interface that requires just a few button-presses to get playing.OnLiveOnLive PicturesOnLive also includes some features you might associate more with your DVR than with a gaming console, including a Replay feature that lets you save the last ten seconds of your gameplay, and send it to your friends.PC gamers aren't left out, either: OnLive's service can be accessed with a browser plugin from either Mac or PC platforms, works identically to the TV version, and has hardware requirements so low you'll be able, the company boasts, to play the most advanced of games on a $300 netbook.OnLive has already signed deals with an impressive range of partners -- including EA, Take-Two, and Ubisoft -- and promises to have an up-to-the-minute selection of games when the service launches. Along with Burnout and Crysis, we spotted Grand Theft Auto IV, LEGO Batman, and Mirror's Edge among the games on offer, although the lineup will likely change before the service launches.There's a catch, though. Being an online, streaming service, OnLive is only going to be as good as your Internet connection. High-definition resolutions will require a higher-end broadband connection, and if your service is prone to drop out unexpectedly, you're probably going to wind up frustrated. Even if it works, all that streaming video's going to add up over the months, and heavy users might find themselves the receipient of some unwelcome attention from their ISPs. Modem users, needless to say, need not apply.OnLive won't talk price, other than to say that they'll be competitive with subscription services like Xbox Live. The box itself is simple and cheap to make, they told us, and it's easy to imagine it being thrown in with subscriptions -- rather like a cable or satellite TV set-top box. Games will most likely be available to rent or buy, and with free demos that don't need to be downloaded.

New tech could make consoles obsolete - Video Game Feature - Yahoo! Video Games

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looking foward to these...

I have always been a Ghostbusters fan since first seeing it when I was a kid. I've played all the crappy Ghostbuster games that were out back in the day... man they were crappy, more so now that I look back on them.

This game looks amazing. I've been waiting for this since I first heard about it and its finally coming out in June! Check this trailer:


Great isn't it?

Now, for all those that have played this game back when they were kids (not many know about this game, I can't believe that!) but this is one game that I spent many hours playing, over and over... I heard about this new one last year and I was like a school girl at a Backstreet show.

Enough talk, more Splatter


Preorders:

upcoming games of interest

I sold my copy of GTA IV awhile back, but I might have to buy it again. This looks pretty damn good. You can get your copy if you haven't yet here: Grand Theft Auto IV: The Lost and Damned

Ok, enough of that.
moving on shall we?

I got some news,,, we i'm happy about it.
I beat Street Fight IV, now wait a min... I beat it many times, I've unlocked all characters and all that good stuff... but I beat it on Hardest w/o losing a match!!! yes, thats right... w/o losing. I'm proud of myself... (either clap or roll your eyes here)

I'm almost at 200+ wins online now...

well, i'm at work atm... so back to work i go. just wanted to make a little post about gta expansion that looks awesome and my sf4 update...